Monday, February 26, 2007

``_____.*darn tired`!!!.#

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well, jus came hm frm wrk again, and den here i am, bloggin, so manii thngs so lil time...sigh...tml nid to go sch liaos...sigh...

240207

went to wrk again, damn tired nohs...

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todae dunnid to go sch, si beh song, budden nid to go to wrk...sians...

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wah lau, dun wanna go sch dee, budden in d end kena forced, so dragged myslf der damn sians lors...den went hm to orh orh, den went to wrk, sians nohs...

210207

OMFG`!!!

Hmmm, went to sch and den had S.W at d last lesson, was like sian la, haha, cos we did like only abit of badminton and den went to rest liaos, den aftr tt went to The Cathay to watch movie...hahas, damn funni nohs...luff till BTH sia...

3:12 AM Z

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

``_____.*GONG XI FA CAI`!!!.#

TODAE

styed hm d hoe dae den went to have Buffet all d way at Jurong, tt fellow was like damn nohs, i called up to book a table, and den i cnt find tt god damn place...and wen i called up to ask for d location, tt god damn idiot kip tellin mii d same thng, as a cust service officer, shldn't u like gt sum1 hu noes d place to cum ova to d fone and direct mii to tt god damn place`? i was like fcukin fed up lors...knn, sum kinda cust service is dis...freakin...

190207

woke up in d noon, den went visitin again...si beh sian nohs...deni was gamblin nohs..hahas, seldom see mii gamble dee nohs...hahas...won money sia...hahas...

180207

hmpf, dis yr damn earlii go visitin nohs...denarnd 2+ went to wrk, damn tired, wrk till abt 5+ in d morn, den went hm, reached hm abt 6+ den orh orh lors...siao dee

HAPIIE CNY`!!!

GONG XI FA CAI`!!!

OIINK OIINK`!!!

170207

wahs, how gr8, i dun have to wrk, cos lat nite hlp Jas liaos, den todae Jas hlp mii nohs, song tio...hahas...den went to Ah Mah's hse to have reunion dinner, den went hm to orh orh liaos...hahas

11:24 PM Z

Saturday, February 17, 2007

``_____.*wahs`!!!.#

it's 4:14 am in a sat morn...and i jus came hm from wrk...wasn't suppose to b wrkin, budden cos Jas stomach cramp, so she swop shift wif mii, so tml i dun have to go wrk`!!! yeahs`!!! hahas, i'm free for tml`!!! budden gotta go wrk on Sun, full shift nehs...my boss wants mii dead sia...omg`!!! aniiways, at last TPS project down, BZC presentation down, nw left wif onii EVM`!!! and den i've gotta strt studyin for dos 3 exams le...sians...gotta hurry hurry`!!!

4:13 AM Z

Thursday, February 15, 2007

``_____.*biggy news nehs`!!!.#

well...tt was a big news i heard frm u...aftr like so manii months, u're tellin mii dis...aniiways, it's doesn't surprise mii...his mouth so swt, u so naive, of cos u will fall for him nahs...aniiways...hhhmmm...these 2 daes nort enuff slp...slpt at abt 5+ evrynite...tired nohs...slp l8 wake up earlii`!!! nb`!! sigh...nuttin to blog now sia...cnt thnk of aniithng...tml den blog bahs...tired le...wanna go gt sum nap 1st, if nort ltr still nid to go wrk...tired...

3:36 PM Z

``_____.*at last bahs....#

well...it's 3:39 in d morn and i'm still doin my project...beta gt it done, if nt d hoe grp's gonna die wif mii...hahas...aniiways, yst nite went to mit dar dar and den came hm real l8 nohs...aniiways, i pon sch wat...so nvm la...hack care...so abt 5+ in d morn den i went hm to orh orh...den arnd 1+ woke up, went out wif dar dar, den dar dar had to leave earlii, so i went to mit mei..went shppin...si beh borin nohs...hahas...aftr shppin head hm, do project till now nohs...so sians...thnk i'm realii gonna b l8 for sch tml liao nohs...so tired...yawns`!!

Well, i may appear to b sparklin...bt...hu will eva noe wat's happenin inside`? i'm actualii rainin heavily`!!! aniiways...hu cares`!!!

i may nva b tt gal again...i will nva b able to find her back...she's HISTORY`!!!
And therefore, nobodii will eva see her smile again...bcos she has alreadii bcum a gal tt lost her smile...

3:39 AM Z

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

``_____.*sigh....#

well...i habon bot anii clothes for CNY at all nehs...hw arhs...tode went to Far East, budden still nva buy aniithng nohs...tml, mus go gt sumthng le, realii gt no time to lose le nehs...aniiways, todae in sch, Aries was like down...real down, nva ask y...cos dun wan her to thnk abt dos unhapii tots...it's nt tt i'm not concern hors...i'm concern...tts y i didn't ask nohs...aniiways...i realii h8 to see her in dis state...if i can, i'd rather b d 1 sufferin...i jus wan evry1 to b happi...

9:03 PM Z

``_____.*borin....#

hhhmmm, nw in sch, Aries sittin nxt to mii, watchin mii blog...kakas...hhhmmm...i dismiss frm sch liaos, budden nw waitin for dey all to dismiss frm sch...actualii wanted to do project dee. hmpf...budden aries wanna go hm...so nt doin project liaos...hmm...was thnkin shld i go and pierce my nose todae...or tml`? if tml pierce, dar dar will scold dee...budden if todae pierce, sure pain pain dee nehs...hmpf`!!! thnkin...

1:00 PM Z

Monday, February 12, 2007

``_____.*sad`? touched`? or shld i say....#

hhhmmm, hahas, i wasn't l8 for sch todae, budden dey msg mii say gt spot check in sch, den knn made mii take out all my studs, den now nose stud cnt put in den gt 1 hole on d rite close again...nb`!!! Wed wanna go pierce again...hmpf...dar dar scolded mii cos i say wanna go pierce again...den summore ask him to bring mii go dee...hmpf...abo i go myslf la...budden i nid to lend sumbodi's guts sia...sigh...sadded...

10:28 PM Z

``_____.*wld u b happier`?.#

sigh...does anii1 noe i'm dyin alreadii`? i've jus finished my BZC project gotta present tml, dun thnk it's 9sly done though...aniiways, jus wanna shw sumthng to teacher tts all...i'm moody...so pls do not disturb...no1 will eva understand hw i'm feelin...i wish...i wish...i wish...

sigh...hw will i eva gt out of dis wrld of isolation`? fark it...i jus wish i cld jus die and run away frm evrythng...dun have to bother...no worries, no 1 to bother, no trouble, i simply h8 life to the core...hw i wish i had d courage to commit suicide...arbo anii1 of u jus kill mii la...since i dun have d courage to die, u all kill mii, den i dun have to commit suicide...

if u thnk tt avoidin mii wld make u happier, well, in tt case, i'd go as u wish...suit u...

mayb i shld like jus strt livin alone...sigh...aftr all, no1 bother...no1's concern...no1's...

12:50 AM Z

Sunday, February 11, 2007

``_____.*sigh.#

went to wrk in d morn, den der was a grp of yougsters i call dem, came to ply pool and dey were like, so god damn childish, ply liaos, dunnoe hw to bring d ball back dee, expect mii to do so, of cos i didn't la, in the end Judy's stead did, den i went hm aftr wrk...was expectin sumthng frm sum1, bt,d1 i expect didn't do so, instead d 1 i wasn't expecting did...sigh, well, sudd, i feel so helpless, i dunnoe why, i jus felt so, i dun like dis feelin, budden, it seems like, i dun have anii othr choice...sigh...i jus feel like dyin alreadi...i been like so long since u last did it, i'm nt waitin aniimore, cos i guess i'm runnin away...

i'm still waitin...

1:56 AM Z

Friday, February 09, 2007

``_____.*it's been like.#

well, went to sch, budden was l8 la, den go KDS lesson let teacher say till KNS sia, den went for d nxt lesson, teacher was like so surprise tt i attend sch, den Jess tell teacher surprise sia...hahas...den went to makan, den went hm liaos...it's quite aborin day though...i'm like dyin here alone, dunnoe whether to slp anots...arghs`!!!

aniiways, yaas, in a relationship, both have to give and take, if 1 kip givin and d othr kip recieving , d 1 giving will b tired, it doesn't matters hu's d 1 hu's gonna gt hurt most at d end. It takes 2 hands to clap. So it doesn't mean tt u love tt sum1, u have to kip givin in all d time, it mite b jus kippin d relationship goin. Tts nt love, tts strivin to jus kip it goin. If you thnk tt stppin d 1 u love frm doin harmful thngs is gd for dem, well, to mii, tts nt love, tts bein selfish, cos u're nt lovin dem as dey are, u're tryin to change dem to d 1 u love...and den dey're nt dem aniimore...

Dey say if u love sumthng let it go, if it cums back it's yours...if it doesn;t cums back, it was nva urs...

i miss euu

1:59 PM Z

``_____.*darn it.#

well, jus came hm frm wrk, and it's 4+ in d morn, and i'm so tired, bt, i cnt let myslf slp, cos i'm afraid tt i won't b able to wake up tml morn to attend tt god damn teacher's lesson, arghs`!!! y mus her lesson b so earlii`? cnt late abit mehs`? sigh, aniiways, jus now at wrk gt cust buy food for mii sia...omg`!!! he saw mii makan liao budden still buy food for mii...omg lors...sigh...

4:34 AM Z

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

``_____.*projects on`!!!.#

hhhmmm...hahas, went to sch todae, hahas, at last i attend S.W todae, d teacher nt bad sia...kekes...was suppose to go and look for Rajes, budden well, nvm, i'll try to make it for her lesson on Fri...i'm like crazy now, i dun seem to ne am i doin, chattin on d line and den tokin rubbish...gotta strt doin d BZC project again liaos...hhhmmm, wat can i say abt these peircings...anii idea`?

11:26 PM Z

``_____.*dead tired`2 of d Jos in my life`!!!.#

hmmm, well, i pon sch on purpose todae, den went out wif piku, 1st stp cine`!!! hahas, had Suki Sushi Buffet, den went shppin, bot a shoe frm Blossomz...nt bad nahs, like it...kekes...den went to Far East to look for Ah Bu...den Ah Bu had to leave for wrk liaos...so mii and piku go gai gai summore nohs, bot nails deco dr, damn cheap sia`!!! OMG`!!! wen mii and piku saw, we were like omg GEMS mans`!!! shine sia...hahas...den we went to Esplanade, bot piku tt cookie, den went to Bugis to wait for BaObeiiXx...kekes...it's been like so long since i last saw baObeiiXx...hahas.my baObeiiXx like grow up liao nehs...like more sensible liaos...nt tt last time nt sensible, budden nw more sensible nohs..kekes...den we shp till we drop nohs...hahas...

hhhmmm...die liaos, i habon buy my cny clothings yet...mus go buy liaos...tot of off-shoulder dee nehs, budden off-shoulder suits mii bo`? hhhmmm...i dunnoe nehs...wat shld i buy`? i've gt a shoe, mayb jus gt a top...or a simple skirt ehh`?

oh yaas, anii1 willin to spend v'day wif mii`? i'm free and avail`!? hw abt a steamboat`? i wanna eat tt spicy soup nehs...kekes`? can bo`? acc mii la, dun liddat la, okkaes`? =DD

hhhmmm, mayb my cny resolution shld b learnin to dress like my age`? sounds nt bad ehh...hhhmmm...shld try...kekes...

12:24 AM Z

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

``_____.*speechless.#

sigh, aftr sch went to Orchard wif huini and laoda, shp till siao lors...budden i nva buy aniithng la...actualii mood nt verii gd dee, den tot go shppin can make myslf beta, budden doesn't seem like it...

well...infact, i've gt so manii thngs to say, bt, wen eva i hear u, i bcame speechless. u nva even bother to ask, well, since u nva even bthr to ask, den y shld i even b bothered to say`? well, i guess i realii have to live by myslf alreaii...cos thngs jus doesn't seem to go my way...

i'll learn to take evrythng as it is, nva try to change it. i shld strt practisin to b a mute...yaas, i thnk i shld...i shld stp botherin abt ppl and evry1 shld like stp bothering abt mii at d same time...u live ur life and i live mine...

i tried to smile all d time, bt are dos smiles genuine`? well...i dunnoe, i dun understand y do i have to put up wif all dis, y do i choose to smile wif evry1 and den cry alone`? is der realii sum1 out der which can truely understand my feelings`? dos feelings tt sumtimes even cause my imagination runnin wild`? i guess i've gotta cry myslf to slp to nite again...can anii1 hlp mii frm these slpless nitex`? i jus wanna live my life simple, i dun ask for aniithngs much, is tt realii so hard to achieve`? dis feelin inside is killing mii`!!! i'd realii rather feel d pain physically den mentally`!!!

1:13 AM Z

Monday, February 05, 2007

``_____.*y cnt i slp`?.#

sigh, it's so l8 in d nite and i shld be slppin as i've gtta attend sch tml, well, actualii, i tot of skippin sch tml, to sty hm and finish project, budden, sigh, well, i dunnoe wat i wanna do now oso la, i feel so vexed...abt...evrythng`?

i jus feel like killin myslf`!!!
arghs`!!!

wen i attend church, evry1 der tried to make us believe our life is a gift frm god, bt till now, i'm nt even convinced, to mii, i gt dis life bcos i probably did sumthng realii wrong, and den god wanted to punish mii, tts y he sent mii here to suffer on earth...

hu noes, we're all probably angels fallen frm d sky, 1s near jesus and den all bein sent to earth to recieve punishment...well, at least tts wat i believe...

evryday i live jus to see d nxt sun rise`? like, for wat sia`? waste of my time, if i gt d courage, i guess i'll b dead by now, i still dun see d reason y i'm livin for...

y make mii believe in u in d 1st place`? i simply h8 it...mayb u can jus leave mii alone, nva have to bothr abt mii, bcos i can live by myslf...i came wif nuttin, i own nuttin, and nuttin belongs to mii and therefore, i'll learn to share...i will learn...

i'll learn to give all d love tt i have to dis wrld, i'll learn to b more carin towards ppl...well, d bottom line is, i'll try to b gd and compromise wif ppl...nt have attitude prob, nva give ppl my trouble except my blog...

sigh...i thnk it's true tt all d prob lies on mii bahs...tts y i gt so manii thngs to learn...sigh...

1 dae wen i'm gone, i wan evry1 to forget abt mii...in my funeral, no mournin, oni laughters for mii, for i'm finally able to leave dis place filled wif hatred...thnkiies=))

u will nva understand bcos u are not mii...

2:11 AM Z

Sunday, February 04, 2007

``_____.*final decision.#

TODAE

sigh, same old thng came hm straight aftr wrk...

well, mayb i shld realii quit sch alreadii...

well, aries, thankiies for thnkin tt g3rl is d best, i dunnoe hw long can i stand wif u oso, i'm losin myslf soon, and u noe, wen g3rl loses herslf, nuttin can bring her back...=)) i hope i can stand wif u till u feel beta b4 losin myslf...=)) i jus wan wats best for my frenXx...

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sigh, damn tired, went to wrk in d morn, den came hm straight...sians...

9:53 PM Z

Friday, February 02, 2007

``_____.*tired.#

TODAE

Sigh, pon sch again, cos cnt wake up, slpt at almost dawn, actualii wanted to go for d TPS field Trip dee, budden since Jess dun wanna go, so i oso dun go lors, not like nva go b4...den realii woke at abt 3-4, cooked green bean soup, den i went dwn to hlp MM, forgot abt my green bean soup, and it all get burnt...sigh...

HAPIIE BURFFDAE TO PIKU`!!! WOoSH`!!!

010207

skipped Hobby Craft, den went hm to rest den gt ready for wrk, was like damn tired lors, luckily mei's owaes der wen i wrk nite shift, if nt i'd b bored to death lors...sigh...cooked green bean soup b4 wrk, Eileen's mum says green bean soup gd for pimples. so mus eat more`!!!

Aries, wat eva ur decision is, jus rmbr we'll b der for u, well, mayb sumtimes thngs we said doesn't suit ur ear, budden pls rmbr...we'll stand as 1 kkaes`? mo`OwarrkXx`!!!

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well, lst dae of d month, was like borin and all as usual...sigh...

9:38 PM Z